[Ichigo is vaguely aware of Mitsutada’s presence but he’s too tired and weak to focus on what is happening.
He does try to bear everything on his own for he believes that his brothers are too young to be burdened with his troubles. He wants them to be happy and just be children. He can’t stop them from having to go into battle but he can try to make their lives as carefree as possible. His brothers are also one of the few things he can remember and he will protect them at any cost. He will be the perfect big brother to them. He will smile for them so that they needn’t worry.
And over time, he has learnt to hide his fears and unease behind a smile. His two greatest fears being having everything he holds dear taken away from him in a flash again and waking up one day with no memory of anything or anyone again. His reawakening at the Imperial Collection had been a terrible time for him at first as he struggled with his amnesia, and it had taken him a long time to remember the few fragments of his past that he now clung to. And then there are those nightmares of that fateful fire...]
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He does try to bear everything on his own for he believes that his brothers are too young to be burdened with his troubles. He wants them to be happy and just be children. He can’t stop them from having to go into battle but he can try to make their lives as carefree as possible. His brothers are also one of the few things he can remember and he will protect them at any cost. He will be the perfect big brother to them. He will smile for them so that they needn’t worry.
And over time, he has learnt to hide his fears and unease behind a smile. His two greatest fears being having everything he holds dear taken away from him in a flash again and waking up one day with no memory of anything or anyone again. His reawakening at the Imperial Collection had been a terrible time for him at first as he struggled with his amnesia, and it had taken him a long time to remember the few fragments of his past that he now clung to. And then there are those nightmares of that fateful fire...]