( What does he do to relax? It implies he gets worked up in the first place and that just doesn't happen. To relax, he rests and that's all he needs to do if he's tired. Hobbies, though? )
I fight and I heal. ( He does as he's told and what if expected of him. It isn't necessary to do anything else. ) I follow orders.
( Ah. There's the problem. He isn't good at speaking and sometimes he says the wrong things. He understands what Kogarasumaru means. If hobbies are what you do to have fun then... )
There is nothing.
( He doesn't really have fun. At least, he doesn't think so. )
( Because he doesn't connect with others well and though he doesn't really seem to react much (he never does) it's still disappointing, even if it is a fact. )
I am a tsurugi. ( The only one at this citadel. ) It is difficult for me to understand katana.
( He's quiet for a moment, really considering his question. Is there something he would like to try first? He pets the fox that is resting in his lap as he thinks. It's a long silence but he really does try to grasp at something that might be useful. What do others like? He's seen them do so many things... garden, tea, cooking, but what would could he do? )
I do not know.
( And though he keeps his posture, he can't help but look away, a little defeated. )
( Kogarasumaru rises and Hakusan's eyes follow him, wondering what is going to happen. Will they go outside or.... what's this? He looks at his outstretched hand and then at Kogarasuaru and again at his hand. His eyes grow wide with surprise-- the most expression he's probably ever shown since arriving here-- and all that he can manage is a very confused, )
[Reaching down, he takes his hand in his to guide him up onto his feet so that way he lead him into a dance. A simple one but a dance all the same. Just to see if he can find some enjoyment in it.]
( The next thing he knows, he's on his feet and he's slow to move, really not having expected this at all. He's never danced before-- ever-- but he's seen people dance before. He'd always thought it was beautiful and they'd seem so happy and peaceful but now, he feels like he's learning how to walk all over again.
Without really thinking, one foot moves in front of the other and back again as he watches Kogarasumaru carefully. He's always one or two steps behind, his movements awkward and hesitant. At least, when he doesn't know where to move his feet, there is a small fox to guide him the best she can. She makes his feet move so he won't step on her, even if he comes close a few times.
It's hard to tell if he's really enjoying it. He's taking it far too seriously right now, )
Close your eyes as you move. Just hold my hand and feel. It's alright if you don't do it correctly.
[Something that might be hard to understand but he's willing to encourage to help his child to realize that it isn't failure to not be essentially perfect. Better still that he's not doing anything wrong right now either. They're only meant to be enjoying themselves.]
And his grip on Kogarasumaru becomes tighter. Not so tight that it would hurt (he’s careful not to hurt him) but enough for anyone to be able to tell that he’s nervous. And maybe it doesn’t show on his face, which still manages to look rather composed at first glance, but he’s definitely worried. Even if it isn’t important to to do things correctly, he still feels like he must. Failure is not acceptable and he only wants to give his best. Perhaps this is something he can relate to when it comes to the katana spirits.
With his eyes closed, he manages the best he can— hesitating a little more, moving too soon in other places, but every now and then... he gets one of the easier moves right. Of course, it isn’t satisfactory enough and he let’s go of his hand, opening his eyes and stepping away, bowing his head deeply, )
[He stops, his head tilting to the side. In that moment he looks very much the bird that he's named for. A lovely crow wondering what there is an apology for. Largely because he has a feeling that Hakusan thinks it's necessary when it really isn't.
( Which is what he's supposed to do. He follows orders and instructions. If he can't do that, then it's a failure. He doesn't really seem to react to him leaning forward, staying as stone-faced as ever but that question.... it's subtle but his brow knits closer together just slightly and he frowns.
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( What else is there to really say? They are fighting foreign enemies and Kogarasumaru is good at fighting them. Therefore, it is good. )
Aruji-sama is satisfied with your performance.
( He's seen the records. )
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[Not surprising but pleasing.]
So, what do you enjoy doing to relax? What hobbies have you learned here?
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I fight and I heal. ( He does as he's told and what if expected of him. It isn't necessary to do anything else. ) I follow orders.
( That's it. That's all. )
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[He has a feeling he knows the answer. But you know what? Sometimes you need to let your children tell you.]
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There is nothing.
( He doesn't really have fun. At least, he doesn't think so. )
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[But that's fine. Kogarasumaru only smiles at him.]
We will have to find something you enjoy doing then. It could help you to connect with the others as well.
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I am a tsurugi. ( The only one at this citadel. ) It is difficult for me to understand katana.
( A hobby might not help. )
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[He may be teasing him but really he's just reading between the lines.]
Do you have any idea of what you would like to try first?
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( He's quiet for a moment, really considering his question. Is there something he would like to try first? He pets the fox that is resting in his lap as he thinks. It's a long silence but he really does try to grasp at something that might be useful. What do others like? He's seen them do so many things... garden, tea, cooking, but what would could he do? )
I do not know.
( And though he keeps his posture, he can't help but look away, a little defeated. )
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[He gets to his feet to come around and hold a hand out to him.]
Let us dance.
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Eh?
( Dance? With him? )
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[Reaching down, he takes his hand in his to guide him up onto his feet so that way he lead him into a dance. A simple one but a dance all the same. Just to see if he can find some enjoyment in it.]
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Without really thinking, one foot moves in front of the other and back again as he watches Kogarasumaru carefully. He's always one or two steps behind, his movements awkward and hesitant. At least, when he doesn't know where to move his feet, there is a small fox to guide him the best she can. She makes his feet move so he won't step on her, even if he comes close a few times.
It's hard to tell if he's really enjoying it. He's taking it far too seriously right now, )
... Like this?
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[Something that might be hard to understand but he's willing to encourage to help his child to realize that it isn't failure to not be essentially perfect. Better still that he's not doing anything wrong right now either. They're only meant to be enjoying themselves.]
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And his grip on Kogarasumaru becomes tighter. Not so tight that it would hurt (he’s careful not to hurt him) but enough for anyone to be able to tell that he’s nervous. And maybe it doesn’t show on his face, which still manages to look rather composed at first glance, but he’s definitely worried. Even if it isn’t important to to do things correctly, he still feels like he must. Failure is not acceptable and he only wants to give his best. Perhaps this is something he can relate to when it comes to the katana spirits.
With his eyes closed, he manages the best he can— hesitating a little more, moving too soon in other places, but every now and then... he gets one of the easier moves right. Of course, it isn’t satisfactory enough and he let’s go of his hand, opening his eyes and stepping away, bowing his head deeply, )
I apologize.
( He isn’t worthy to dance with Kogarasumaru. )
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[He stops, his head tilting to the side. In that moment he looks very much the bird that he's named for. A lovely crow wondering what there is an apology for. Largely because he has a feeling that Hakusan thinks it's necessary when it really isn't.
Such a sweet child.]
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It is a failure.
( His attempt to follow along and learn to dance. )
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[Long nails come up to painted lips as he leans forward while he gazes at him, curious to say the least.]
Who said such a thing to you?
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( Which is what he's supposed to do. He follows orders and instructions. If he can't do that, then it's a failure. He doesn't really seem to react to him leaning forward, staying as stone-faced as ever but that question.... it's subtle but his brow knits closer together just slightly and he frowns.
Who...? )
I do not understand...
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[He knows that the answer is no one. This is a punishment that Hakusan has inflicted upon himself. His own personal scolding as it were.]
I do not recall hearing anyone say so.